I hate how my life is now. I hate studies and the way friends around me treat me. The hurt i've got after every relationship. How hard i have to struggle to let go. My first best friend, one whom i've known for 4 years. We've drifted apart. You've gone to another clique, forgetting how i treated you, those stuffs i've done for you. How i'm always there when you need someone. How nice was our heart to heart talks and those memories we had together. I know people do change. But have you all forgotten how well i treat you guys? Or is it that bad to you? Second one. Wee've known for a year. Things turn out 360 degrees turn. We became like enemies. We hate each other. Have you all forgotten what i did for your birthdays, spending so much money? And i get nothing in return for my birthday. God's unfair. Dont i deserve a real best friend? You once cry like a dog when he leave you. What now? Become a hongster? Or you get over so fast when you say you need a real long time to get over. Ljw. You can jolly well just go suck guy's dicks all you want. Non remember what i did for them. Non remember how well i treated them. No one knows what i'm feeling. Dont i stand a place in one's heart? Those words you told me, became just words. How stupid am i, to still save the messages. You have forgotten how hurt i felt when you tell me your sufferings till i cry. How hurt i felt whenever we quarrel. You dont feel anything. And you are living your life very well now, without knowing what i'm going through.

Life is shit. God in unfair.
Fml.

♥ 2:07 AM

Your facebook display picture explains everything. You got 2 sides, one is on facebook, another is on twitter. Idk which to trust.

♥ 6:52 AM

I'm really sick and tired of everything. All your ending with her, all your nonsense. You bring me up and drop me down from the sky. So many times. It's just something that i cant explain it out in words and no one will understand. I regretted know you two. Totally ruin up my life. I just want to be a normal and cheerful girl. You totally ruin up everything. I want to get over. I believe i can. I believe i will get a guy that deserves me. Soon, you wait and see. I used to be a very cheerful girl, someone who jumps around. Now, i'm someone who is always being asked if i'm okay. No one will understand how i feel, how deep down my heart, how it is feeling. I'll get myself with cuts and get over with it. Go on your life with her. Dont have to bother about me. Pretend you dont know me. Pretend you never entered my life before. Really. This post isnt for anyone. Neither it's for you. Your display picture very nice. Go on, put somemore. (: I really dont know how to explain everything further. It's really too dramatic.

To end off this post, i shall say, i love my darling and babeh. ♥

♥ 1:32 AM

Chinese new year's first day today. Kinda tiring. But i love sayang-ing niece and nephew, they're so cute! ♥ Carry them around, playing with them, see them laugh. See them cling onto me. Haha! Going for movie with family later. Just want to update blog.

Seeing your posts in blog, make me feel so.. Happy? Sad? Angry? Idk. Stupid daniel went to malaysia. Idk why, everything seems to be different between me and him.

After CNY, school studies will be crazy. So many test coming up, stress. So many work to do. Hope i can cope. Guess i've not nothing else to say. Will update soon. ♥

♥ 5:47 AM

Back to post,
School have been very busy for me this whole week.
Monday, wednesday, thursday tutorals. Tuesday cca day and CNY rehearsal today.
Tired ttm.
Probation period still on.
Today Ms Aida told me, that the school, herself and all teachers never give up on me, want me to cut down and eventually quit smoking.

Mr ong : Zhihui ah!
Me : Yes cher?
Mr ong : 你啊, 要乖乖我跟你讲， 要好好读书知道吗?!
Me : HAHA! Orh!

He's so random and cute.

To that someone:
It seems that we are not even friends anymore, we shall pretend we dont know each other at all. Next time when you see me anywhere, pretend you see a stranger. Dont bother calling me and say you saw me just now. You want me to hate you, i'm doing it. Dont come attitude me. You want me to, i did it for you. I blocked you and unfollow you in twitter. You remove me as friend in facebook. So be it, take it as we are not friends anymore. I shall let everything out. My friends are telling me that i'm a substitute and they say, half year, you just know it now. I know it long ago, just that i didnt want to get the fact in my mind. You know how my ex jason treat me, you know how my feelings didnt fade for him. You know what kind of girlf am i. You ended up treating me with all these shits instead of treasuring me. So be it, i shall not treasure you anymore. I'll live my life and you'll get on with your own life with someone who treats you like a ..... Asking you to fuck off everytime you two quarrel, asking to not bother contacting her after every quarrel. All merepek. Ended up, not fucking off, still contacting. You two, get a life. Seems like you still dont know what kind of girl she is. Someone who go clubs, at night go out late late, someone who drinks and smokes. Guess you wont want a girlf like this. If you do, i have nothing to say.

I shall end off by saying, thanks for those happy moments and memories.

♥ 4:04 AM

3rd week of school, so tired already.
How am i gonna survive the next few months. ._.
Had poa test today.
Didnt managed to finish and after test i went back to class and kept thinking if my account will balance not.
Then got so moody, no mood do maths.
Guess i shall go practice my maths later. Graphs.
And i'm not learning anything is CHEN XIAO MEI's class! :@

You, guys, have the looks then treasure it, get a girl who treats you well.
Dont take your looks and go around hong-ing girls.
1 word to describe you, HONGSTER!
I'm not gonna care about you.
Fuck off from my life.
And go FYL.

Alright, shall go bath and off to studies if i can concentrate.

♥ 1:19 AM

School sucks off for today.
First day, got caught for coloured hair.
Secondly, got caught for not bringing badge.
Thirdly, canteen so small! So many ppl buying food. Fucked up, never eat.
Fourth thing, no aircon classroom when i've been waiting for 3 years.
Lastly, cca on the first day and my leg hurts like fuck.

♥ 2:43 AM

Back from malaysia, didnt had much fun.
Kinda boring.
Miss my asshole bro.
He wanna see me touched, so he spammed me msg, but i received 4 only.
He like blame singtel only ah. Cause he sent 14 texts.
But anyway, thanks bro. (:
Gonna out soon, to 8bao.

I've lost you and i miss you. <3

♥ 8:16 PM

Was late for cca today.
But better than never go.
Not compulsory too.
Practice was kinda boring.
But was learning new song. I like! (:

Got to see you today, friend. (:
Still as asshole as usual. Haha!
Remaining as good friends like that not bad though. (:

♥ 2:19 AM

Cca was tiring.
Holding on was even tiring.
Time for me to let go, and continue with life.
Maybe i should. But, can i?
Yes, i can. (:
All the best to you. (:
Still friends.

Be strong, dont cut yourselve because of me.
Dont do silly things.
I'm not worth you doing all these.

♥ 5:15 AM